Spoiler Warning: It made me want to kill myself (or is it just a giant virgin?)
Before I begin, I understand why contraception can help some people and that using it is a personal choice, but I will always strongly advocate for alternative contraceptives, treatments, and male contraception. Going beyond contraception is the only reason I am alive at 24, and that means something. I am very grateful to realize that I am too stupid to successfully die every day at 19-21.
When I was 9 years old, I had problems with my menstrual cycle. I started younger than my peers (9) and was thrown into a world I didn't understand at all. I didn't even know what a period was. I thought I was dying.
I tied my bedding and pajamas, hugged them downstairs, and hid the blood-soaked laundry in the machine. I went to bed and accepted my fate - I would die in a few hours, and my parents would find me when they woke me up for school. I was always a drama.
To intensify the hatred during my period, I developed polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) and premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD) as a teenager.PCOS and PMDD have not been extensively studied. I have changed my entire lifestyle over the past 3 years to manage my symptoms.