Before the end of the relationship, there is a sign of signs, and it is the same as somewhere.

At the end of this month, the monthly living room I rented on my month has expired. In the past few days, I have been hesitating to renew the rent. In fact, I hope to change the place in the subconscious. Although here is at the foot of Emei Mountain, I don't like climbing mountains, and I haven't been there for so many days. Occasionally, just a few steps along the stone steps, and even the toll office turned and turned down the mountain. I don't know why, I always feel that the mountain will give people a sense of oppression. Not only the mountain, the same is true for high -rise buildings.

Although the second landlord always said that these months are the peak season, it is not cool here. Maybe the peak season he said is that in the impression of many people, it is a suitable season for travel from May to October. And many weddings are not chosen in this period of time.

I like the sea. I don't know if it is related to myself that it is Pisces. For example, inspiration is the easiest to explode when taking a bath; for example, it is easy to learn to swim; for example, when you are in a bad mood, go to the beach to walk around. Dai Wangshu's "Rain Lane" ...

Just a few days when I hesitated to leave.

First, I heard that the young lady living next door was harassed by a male neighbor, and finally had to report to the police. Within a few days, I encountered similar incidents, and chose the alarm for the first time. Although the last truth is that a guest living in a tour group in the same building knocked the door wrong, but several big men chatted and wandered at the corridor outside my door, and sounded my door more than once. I can't think of a better handling method except for the alarm.

Second, every weekend, there will be a big wave of guests in the building, and the bustling busty really disturb me rest. Therefore, after the problem with the second landlord, the other party also understood the plan to change the house after the house expired. But to be honest, there are hotels or homestays in almost every building here. In addition, these months are the peak season he said. I think it ’s the same wherever it is. It will also be more favorable.

Third, I have some pleasing personality. Even if I go out to buy a fruit and eat a meal. If there are people around me, I will subconsciously take care of each other's emotions and preferences, which will make myself feel tired. In order not to make myself too sad, I prefer to live alone in the group. Although sometimes it is really inconvenient, most difficulties can overcome it myself. After coming here, the second landlord was very enthusiastic, and various activities such as dinner, hot springs, and mountain climbing across the three forks. Participate, I really don't like lively, don't participate, I seem to be unsatisfactory. It will give yourself some spiritual burden.

Forgot where I saw such a sentence: Most of human beings stress, from interpersonal relationships. I thought I would feel relaxed away from the living environment that suffocated myself. It was true a few days at first, but after freshness, various sequelae began to appear. Do not deny that these sequelae have the psychological shadow brought by native families, but they are more of their own habits. As I often say: If the heart can't let it go, there is a cage wherever you don't open. Therefore, I may need to run again for a while, or for the rest of my life to find the ownership of the soul. And this belonging may be my favorite sea, or maybe my favorite furry (various long -haired animals), perhaps the dedication to food, or a new hobby.

Yes, I suddenly thought that I have not cultivated new hobbies for many years. Cooking is a one, but these years have become more and more degraded, which may also be related to the degradation of its own function. Swimming has always been, but the swimming pool in the gym is too noisy. I don't like more people. So, if you want to come, I should go closer to the sea.

Sometimes, in the light rain of the morning, sit on the balcony and watch the paper book; sometimes, walking in the community through the moonlight; sometimes, a person goes to Zhaitang to eat a meal silently, seriously Wash the dishes; sometimes, go to the surrounding ancient town alone walking on the pavement of the blue stone slabs ... In short, as long as it is alone, it can make me a lot more peaceful.

There is almost a week. Whether you find another suitable house to move in the community, or leave it, this diary should not be the last article, so there is no need to tend to summarize the style of concluding. Is it more motivated to have time? For my habitual delay, each deadline date will have the courage to die.

I know that I believe in God's will. A "chicken blood" who is no longer hit by those people who will no longer hit those people. I just feel that everything is alert. For example, the newly moved neighbors who came upstairs, such as suddenly ate stones when eating fast, such as the long -standing construction sites nearby have recently been drying the sky, such as the alarm phone call this morning ... Thinking about it, I am here, I am, I am, I am, Shouldn't you climb the mountain and go to the temple to burn a fragrance? Admitting that you have admitted your destiny, you will go if you push your fate. If you encounter bumps, it is a trial of fate; if you go smoothly, it is the conservative of fate ... make your sensuality greater than rational and live obediently.

When I participated in the Christian spiritual group before, my predecessors told me that everything was God's will. I don't believe it is because I saw too many people as factors when I experienced something, so I finally chose to leave. Now, in accordance with the Buddhist sacred land, is it a guidance of another destiny? It is not impossible to become a monk, as long as the temple is willing to collect me, as long as my own conditions meet.

I just talked to the younger sister who I met here just now. I should have been compatible with this time. I think this feeling is very warm. It may also be the arrangement of heaven, I don't want me to be too lonely. Therefore, maybe my ability to perceive happiness has not completely disappeared. Or, in fact, I have always been there, but I have been suppressed by too many unpleasantness.

Suddenly, I felt hungry, and I could catch up with the time to catch up with Zhaitang. Then clean up and go downstairs. If you are lucky, take the newly bought book back. Or it is quite pleasant to read the book in the reading area of ​​the hotel lobby after eating. I do n’t know if I will meet an acquaintance, it is best not to do it, otherwise there must be pressure again.

Who told me that life was an experience? The sweetness and bitterness have to be fully tasted. If God really believes like the "cause and effect" of my faith, I believe that my second half of my life should be better.

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PS: By the way, the TV drama version of "The Story of Rose" is recently chasing the TV series. Although I prefer paper books, this drama is also good. Very warm and cured. It happens to be the temperature I need. I have to admire Yishu Tai, really amazing!