It's almost ten o'clock in the evening, and I've just sat in front of the computer and prepared to start writing today.

After three hours of time, I stepped on the stool, searched through the shelves in the storage room, but couldn't find the gelatin slices I bought before. Tomorrow, my niece would come to my house and we would make coconut milk mango jelly together.

During the search process, my anger rose again. I looked at the shelf with various unsealed ingredients, stacked inside and out on the plastic storage racks I bought before. Some ingredients were bought before, and I had never seen more. The topic of not stocking up on ingredients is a cliché, and the current situation is only more out of control than before.

My emotions also got out of control. I jumped off the stool heavily and roared "Ah". My parents were in their bedroom, and their phones were turned on loudly, but they didn't hear my "roar". So I ran to their room and said loudly, "I can't find anything, don't buy it anymore!" Whether they understood or not, I quickly walked out of their room, went back to my bedroom to change my clothes, and went to Hema to buy gelatin films.

After changing my clothes, I went back to the kitchen and checked the drawer, but still couldn't find it. Now I must go out. On the way, I tried my best to focus on the present, but I could not help but think of my anger at myself yesterday. It seemed that this belief was about to form. But I knew that this catch point was not whether I moved out. It seemed that I had to go back to myself to find the reason, but my mind couldn't stop. I asked myself why I wanted to fight? Why can't we accept the messy environment? Confrontation only makes this worse.

Hema's shopping is a direct-to-the-top type. After getting the gelatin film, he purchased vegetables and mushrooms tomorrow. In addition, we all like to eat aftertaste foie gras, so we quickly settled the bill and went home.

When I got home, my parents' door was closed. I was probably already taking a shower and going to bed after I took a shower. However, because of the hot weather and bad mood, I was still feeling uneasy when I got home. After putting the dishes in the refrigerator, I saw an extra hanging rod on the kitchen door, with several pairs of ugly sleeves, two pairs of silicone gloves and three aprons hanging. Do I have to show it like this? My anger was lit again. I quickly took off these "ugly things" and threw them into the trash can. This process ignited my fighting spirit. I simply cleaned up and cleaned up the debris on the high and low pole clothes hanger beside the door that I wanted to clean up. After my father's transformation, this place was covered with an IKEA curtain cloth on it, and it turned into a pile of debris.

I cleared out three bags of debris from it, stuffed them into the garbage bag without thinking, and then went downstairs and put them into the trash can. During the process of going downstairs, I remembered that during the past few years, whenever I wanted to throw things other than my own items, I reminded myself to respect my parents' space. But today, I broke my own principle and I knew that there was a long-depressed fire in my heart. If I didn't act, it would have to ignite the house.

After I finished doing this, I took a garbage bag and cleaned up the debris in the bathroom, cleaned the floor, and then took a shower for myself, which was a calm stop. After writing these, I could feel that my emotions were not fully released, my back was a little sore, and my chest was a little blocked. However, I don’t regret all this I did tonight, and I am also glad that I didn’t have a head-on conflict with my parents because of my condition.

I can only pray for my inner wisdom so that I can communicate with my parents about this matter tomorrow. At the same time, I can only continue to wait for the key to this point to appear, so that I can have a transcendent strategy and a way to deal with it. After all, the "thunder" I buried in the past can only be cleaned one by one. The deeper I buried, the more effort I will spend. As I write this, I feel a little relaxed.

grateful! I am doing something that was difficult for me in the past - facing my emotions and not judging myself. At the same time, such a record will also help me realize myself more deeply, and hope that I will discover something in the near future.

Cultivate the matter! I accept all my state, and I believe that every manifestation is to draw out my inner wisdom, so that I can know myself more and get closer to my inner life. I hope that every fellow traveler can keep walking on this road! mutual encouragement!